These past two weeks have been a whirlwind. Scratch that... This entire year!! From post childbirth complications that left me sicker than I have ever been, to my husband having a pulmonary embolism, and this week my sweet little girl getting croup. I haven't slept a full night in 8+ months. These past two weeks in particular I have been living on a few solid hours. The past few nights my husband and I have taken turns sitting with our 8 month old in a steamy bathroom trying to help her breathe better so she could get back to sleep. There is nothing more terrifying and heart breaking than watching your little girl feel so awful! Then on top of that the "love" was shared and now I'm sick too.
I was sort of at my wits end when I walked past some notecards I had written some verses on.
Romans 5:3-5
"We also have joy with our troubles, because we know that these troubles produce patience. And patience produces character, and character produces hope. And this hope will never disappoint us, because God poured out his love to fill our hearts."
I meditated on the character part. I started thinking about my mom and all that she has endured. Lost my dad when I was 13 and my sister was 11. She became both parents for us and did it so well. I believe the trials she endured produced character that still shows today. It's beautiful.
I guess I'm trying to say that I count it joy that God has deemed me strong enough to handle what he has allowed to come my way. And I pray that I can be patient even in these struggles as God transforms my character and makes me into a wife and mom that are pleasing to Him. And I truly count my blessings that we have made it through these struggles as a stronger family of 3. I'm blessed!
Romans 8:18-19
"The sufferings we have now are nothing compared to the great glory that will be shown to us. Everything God made is waiting with excitement for God to show His children's glory completely."
You have such a beautiful heart!
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