When It Feels Like You Might Break

Today I thought I might break. Shatter into a million tiny pieces of stress, worry, sadness and failure. But I didn't. For one simple reason. The cross. Christ and His unfailing love and grace. His word written on my heart to pull from when I feel empty and overwhelmed. The Holy Spirit whispering truth over me... "You are not a failure". 

I won't talk about the broken lamp or the dent in my heart from my daughters unkind words said in frustration. How my sweet baby cried All. Day. Long. The look from the mom at preschool pickup when my toddler wouldn't get in the car. Or the enemy's lie that I'm not a good mom. No I won't give those thoughts another minute of my time. Because I know that my toddler is human- just like me might I add, that grace is sufficient and no one is perfect. Except Christ. And He is in me. Therefore today was a tough day but nothing more. Just a spec in a lifetime. Not even comparable to eternity. And more than anything I just keep thinking about His promises to me. He never promised life would be easy mamas! But He did promise He would never leave us. In fact He promised to use trials to refine us like silver and gold. He sees me as more precious than gold, and just as gold is refined in the flames, so are we when we go through trials. So tuck His word deep in your heart. Memorize it, meditate on it and call on it when you feel like you might break. And He will faithfully carry you through this day. 

Isaiah 

43 But now, this is what the  says—
    he who created you, Jacob,
    he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
    I have summoned you by name;you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
    I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
    they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
    you will not be burned;
    the flames will not set you ablaze.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
    Cush[a] and Seba in your stead.
4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
    and because I love you,
I will give people in exchange for you,
    nations in exchange for your life.
5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
    I will bring your children from the east
    and gather you from the west.
6 I will say to the north, ‘Give them up!’
    and to the south, ‘Do not hold them back.’
Bring my sons from afar
    and my daughters from the ends of the earth—
7 everyone who is called by my name,
    whom I created for my glory,
    whom I formed and made.”